by BigBird74
5
Sitting in waiting rooms can be a great form of
therapy for the troubled mind. It forces a moment of quiet reflection as you
watch the minutes tick by. So it was for Dahlia on another visit to the dreamy
psychologist. As you may guess from that last sentence, Dahlia’s relationship
with the Dr Jacobs had moved on, at least in her own mind. The pleasant
fluttering in her stomach confirmed a hidden reason for her visits on top of
wanting to get control over her anxiety attacks.
The previous few days had been difficult. Melissa’s
fit of anger the other night was still raw, with both sisters forming an uneasy
truce which had seen the normally pristine home descend into an untended
anarchy. Neither wanted to seek a truce just yet and the situation was getting
difficult. Just that morning Dahlia had almost – almost – broken and thought of
clearing away the clutter.
Of course, she had considered just telling her sister
to go. That was always an option after all. But something in her pulled her
back from that particular place, opting instead to wait. After all, it is
typically the threat of pulling a trigger that focuses minds, not actually
doing it!
Bang on time, the doctor appeared, looking as handsome
as ever. He could see from Dahlia’s pallid complexion that she was not in the
best of spirits. That was only to be expected. He had learned a great deal from
his sessions with her sister. At first he had been uncomfortable about taking
her on as well. Dahlia was a rich client and a good paying one at that. He was
sure he could earn enough out of her to keep him in clover for years and did
not want anything to spoil it.
Something stirred within him. A moment when his
thoughts returned to other, darker ideas he had been entertaining. It is not
every day, a shrink like him picked up a client as prestigious and attractive
as Dahlia Western. And he would not be a man if her arousing presence had not
affected him somewhat. But people are complicated and so was the doctor.
For as much as he may find Dahlia attractive, he was
keenly aware of how wealthy she must be and that was his preoccupation right
now. As he motioned her into his office, he went through the motions,
displaying his ‘attraction’ to her: the slight touches, eye contact, shared
moments of understanding and empathy. Oh yes, he knew how to pull every one of
those emotional heart strings.
When Melissa had walked into his room, his ambitions
had grown from an overly qualified gigolo to perhaps getting it all. He
understood people’s minds and had an array of tools at his disposal. All this
was going to need was to bring certain, hidden emotions and feelings to the
surface and he felt he could have a conditioned, former model eating out of his
hand.
It only took a few minutes for their conversation to
drift onto the sisters’ recent bust-up. Dahlia had proven remarkably simple to
put into a trance. But then, it is not as hard as people imagine. This was no
stage act after all. She was not going to get on all fours and bark like a dog,
no matter how thrilling that might have been for the deviant within him. No,
that would never do. This was therapy after all.
Dahlia assumed her position laying on the couch and it
began again, those comforting waves of relaxation she felt when with him. It
was always like this. She wondered if he felt it to. She was so at ease, able
to discuss everything with him and it all flooded out. Gone was her early
reticence to discuss the inner workings of her life. Now she was only too happy
to talk about anything with him. Those early embarrassments as they discussed
her early life were gone.
She revelled in telling him about her childhood, her
early adolescence. Even discussing her earliest fumbles in the dark with boys
made her giggle and not feel mortified as she might have expected normally.
Okay so she had no idea he was using the black arts on her, but he justified it
to himself that ultimately she would be happier with a simpler life.
The gems of information he had mined from Melissa’s
cruder outlook provided many back doors into Dahlia’s subconscious.
Hypnotherapy only really works if a deep level of trust can be formed and if
the subject wishes to change. Nothing can be done against the person’s
willpower. In Dahlia’s case, he had found a subject willing to change, open to
suggestion and Melissa was providing him with the keys. Melissa herself was the
opposite. Unchanging, stubborn, unwilling to try new things. Mentally she was
like a rock. However she had proved useful in her own way.
So it was that Dahlia spent happy hours with the
handsome doctor. He suggested how good his visits made her feel and, soon, she
was coming twice a week. As his influence over her grew, so did his schemes.
Today though he had a particular job to do. Next week saw Dahlia’s latest
‘comeback’ show and he had to lay down the latest step in his plan.
6.
The cavernous room where the fashion show was to be
held was dark and brooding with menace. At least that is how Dahlia saw it. As
she nervously gazed at the monitors lining the dressing area, that inner dread
seemed to build inexorably, pushing her towards what she feared was a breaking
point. She closed her eyes and reminded herself of the various mantras the
doctor had drilled into her in an attempt to calm herself. She focused on her
breathing, slowing and calming the fluttering in her stomach that was fuelling
so much of her discomfort. For a moment she felt better. But as the loud
pulsating music started up, she almost jumped off her chair, her nerves again
shredded.
It might have been reasonable for her to have questioned
the value of the ‘help’ she had been receiving of late. After all, so little
had changed since her last show. The nerves that had gripped at her then seemed
just as strong now. But Dahlia had an enormous crush on the doctor that seemed
to be getting stronger by the day. Rarely did an hour go by without her mind
somehow recalling his handsome, chiselled looks. She could almost forgive him
anything.
She gazed at herself in the mirror. What looked back
was a model of the highest repute, poised and primped to perfection. Her long
blonde hair cascaded down her impossibly beautiful face, framing what many
would term a near perfect work of art. The lighting and her foundation helped
to remove the traces of age that had now started to creep gently onto her face.
While to many a model, those lines would be a dreadful harbinger of the end of
a career, Dahlia had almost come to see them as a ticket out of her problems.
After all, once her agent and the obsequious devotees that surrounded her lost
interest, she could escape. So many depended on her for their livelihoods and
Dahlia, deep down, felt trapped by this realisation.
Her chaperone for the day was signalling that it was
almost time to go. Dahlia looked mournfully at herself one last time and got
up. Her outfit, like her hair and makeup was impeccable. Some lackey at the
designer studio had obviously poured their soul into it and the short ensemble
made Dahlia look like a goddess. Her long legs and lithe model frame showcased
everything to perfection.
As the clock counted down to that dreaded moment, she
had a nagging sensation that something was different. All her usual tricks
seemed to have failed her. Nothing the doctor had taught her seemed to be
working either. The panic continued to well up inside of her, risking to burst
forth. Dahlia spun around. She had one last resort, something the doctor had
slipped her for just this sort of emergency.
Dahlia had never been one for taking medication. The
whole idea strongly appalled her. She had seen a number of friends become
hooked on various illicit drugs and she crudely equated all drugs as equally
damaging. After all, her body was a temple was it not? But, something was not
right. The panic inside of her would just not quit and risked turning into a
tidal wave that would wash her right off that stage. As she grabbed at the
small box of pills in her bag, feeling her guilt build. ‘Just this once,” she
promised herself and, with that, the little pill was inside her.
The rest of the night went by just as planned, even if
a little hazy. Dahlia took the applause in her stead, feeling as though she did
not ‘deserve it’. That was to be expected. At least it was to the doctor when
Dahlia next visited him and relayed her experience to him. Something inside of
Dahlia seems to have broken during the show and, as she lay on the couch, the
doctor could see the fruits of his surreptitious labour borne out completely.
When he had met her, Dahlia had already been questioning her sense of
self-worth and weeks of hypnotic suggestion were reinforcing that belief inside
of her.
That moderate sense of self-loathing he had exposed had grown into
something more consuming. Not that the doctor had any real difficulty. He found
himself pushing at a half-open door, nurturing the seeds of doubt that had
culminated in what Dahlia saw as that shameful moment when she popped the pill.
That was the moment something inside of her had broken and the self-loathing
took reached a new pitch.
She would never have felt that way had she a fuller
appreciation of just how the doctor had been undermining her confidence
subconsciously. Her unbridled fear that day was a result of his efforts to make
the anxiety attacks worse. Now as she spoke of her ‘failure’ to control her
rising panic, she looked to him for help, completely unaware of his ulterior
motives. His response came as a surprise and yet chimed perfectly with Dahlia’s
now twisted thinking.
It's not exactly clear what Dr Jacob's stategy is to access as much of Dahlia's money as possible. It seems as though his first approach is to make her lose condfidence whilst at the same time persuade her that because of that loss she needs him all the more. I don't think that, as yet, he's deliberately recruiting Melissa as either a conscious or conscious ally but he surely will once he realises how far down Dahlia is feeeling.
ReplyDeleteThis seems to be going further than either Emma's original or longer story beause in both those Dahlia's descent was totally self-inflicted. This much more evil and will be harder to escape.
Thanks.
R
The plot looked promising initially, and the writing is competent. With this installation, the plot has descended into melodrama. Granted, slightly more subtle melodrama, so far anyway, than most, but melodrama still. The character's transformation is being driven externally, very consciously so, not by her own needs and desires. I shan't be reading further.
ReplyDeleteI agree with you about the story descending into melodrama. Feuding sisters, evil psychiatrists are pretty hackneyed stereotypes. I was more troubled though by the implicit misogyny of this story. One female character is plotting against her sister. The other is presented as a desperate woman almost begging to be manipulated by a male authority figure. But then, the male doesn't come out looking very good either. Everyone in the story is a stereotype, and everyone is unsympathetic. Not a good recipe for holding readers' interest.
DeleteI dwelt at some length on whether to have this part so early in the story. I hope it becomes apparent later why I chose to do so. All I can say is see how the next few parts stack up for you =) But yes... it is different and Dahlia will be getting a few rough pushes in this version.
ReplyDeleteBigBird
"The plot looked promising initially, and the writing is competent. With this installation, the plot has descended into melodrama. Granted, slightly more subtle melodrama, so far anyway, than most, but melodrama still. The character's transformation is being driven externally, very consciously so, not by her own needs and desires. I shan't be reading further."
ReplyDeleteYou sir offer the perfect example of why this excellent site struggles for writers, you pompous, ignorant, Anonymous cretin
Pompous and ignorant might be names levied towards someone taking over a comments section to throw insults at people giving their opinion on something.
DeleteThe author responded to the critique of his story in a gracious and reasonable way. Whatever we think of the story, I think we should all respect BigBird for showing maturity and professionalism. I don't know why anyone would decide he has to become the author's attack dog.
Delete"Pompous and ignorant might be names levied towards someone taking over a comments section to throw insults at people giving their opinion on something."
DeleteWhy on earth have you taken the time to write a negative opinion about a story that's been posted here for free?
What point do you think it makes? Seriously? How is your wittering going to make the man change his style to something that you ptefer rather than he prefers? Are you a bit backward or something? Here's a tip for you, Mr Anonymous, if you don't like a story just STFU and move on, like normal people do
I don't know why anyone would decide he has to become the author's attack dog."
DeleteIt's manly an attempt to prevent arrogant ignorant knobheads like you from driving away authors from this excellent site, I suppose.
If you've nothing constructive to say, and you haven't, then STFU and move on
@charles ryder
DeleteHow is your wittering going to make commenters change their opinions or refrain from expressing them? Some authors do care about knowing whether readers think they are hitting the mark literarily or not. And comments can shape the way other readers view a story. Your indignation and verbal amuse are just going to amuse those who read them. If anything, you are encouraging further negative commentary.
Why for the love of God are you registering negative comments on a free site?
DeleteAll you want is authors to write consensual stories that you personally like. How is that constructive?
Why not just write one yourself that we could all enjoy your skill?
The only negative on this site is you. You don't provide stories or even support, just bile. You're completely irrelevant and won't be missed in the slightest when you're gone
Is there anybody here or anywhere who wants to see authors writing stories she personally dislikes? I don't think you understand the function of a comments section. It's not meant to a a claque.
DeleteCharles, it's pretty funny that you think that all the anonymous comments are from the same person, I've not made a single remark about the story, just your oafish attempts to defend the author when there's really no need.
DeleteLike I said before, your pompousness and ignorant insults are very unbecoming of the site and if I were looking for a reason not to submit work for inclusion it would be the idea that your boorish comments might be tied to my story and not the fact that people have gone out of their way to give their honest opinion on my efforts.
You may stand down, or fly wildly off the handle as is more likely.
I've commented positively on virtually every writer on this site that I like (the majority) and I've commented positively on the caption writers, you absolute ignoramus.
DeleteHave you?
When I encounter writers who are not to my taste, I simply don't comment because I understand that other people may well like them.
I'm rapidly coming to the conclusion that you're not intelligent enough to understand that concept.
One more time, criticising non-consensual stories only because you personally prefer consensual ones is NOT constructive and therefore invalid.
"I was more troubled though by the implicit misogyny of this story."
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You do know this is a porn site dealing in fantasies, don't you?
Surely you do?
If not then have you maybe considered that you're on the wrong site? Pathetic hand-wringing is thatawayπ
I don't believe that porn or fantasy get a pass for misogyny. If you believe that, maybe you need to think through what that implies. I don't believe that a work of porn or fantasy can't also be well-written and believable in it own context. I'm not interested in it if it isn't.
Delete"You do know this is a porn site"
DeleteNo way! Oh, wait...
Anonymous4
Delete"I don't believe that porn or fantasy get a pass for misogyny"
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This just gets better! Please don't tell me I've fallen for a super-troll?
Surely no one in the real world is this pompous and self-righteous?
It's very well written in my opinion. But perhaps you could show us how it should be done? Can you please point us to something you've written? Just for comparison'sake
@Canille Langtry I always thought of this as a literary erotica site.
DeleteAre you trying to tell me that all the years I've been proofreading/editing for various writers (including Camille!) I've been involved in encouraging pornography? Surely not.
DeleteI'll certainly be continuing reading even if only to see where BB is leading us.
R
Well, guess that depends on what one thinks "pornography" is. Say, this is what my high school physics teacher called poorly done formulas.
DeleteCamille
ReplyDeleteI feel bad letting you know like this. Apologies.
Like the story
ReplyDeleteThanks BB
Keep on doing your writing BB i in joy it can’t wait for the next chapters
ReplyDeleteGuys, I think you both made your points. I do agree there is little to no sense in comments saying one won't be reading a story because it has A and not B. There are A LOT of things I don't find interesting or stimulating but it's not like writers of XXX stories are going to turn them into ZZZ stories just to please me, right? On the other hand, Charles, tone it down please. No need to insult people. Let's keep it civil please.
ReplyDelete"[t]here is little to no sense in comments saying one won't be reading a story because it has A and not B."
DeleteWell, I'd say that depends on what A and B are. If A and B are specific tropes, that's obviously true. If A and B are general, broadly recognized elements of literary composition, that's a whole other matter. It would be absurd to say "I didn't like this story because it didn't have a heroine who wore a green linen dress." It would be very reasonable to say "I didn't like this story because it didn't have characters who were not stereotypes." There are some basic things readers expect from a story, in any genre. One of the major ones is that the characters will be oeople they can care about, relate to. Who wants to read a story that just makes you say "Those silly bastards all deserve each other."?
Big Bird actually inspired me to write with the first untitled (sadly unfinished) story. I had help from Robyn H with editing. As a writer (and for myself I truly use the word loosely) constructive criticism helps, comments that make me rethink the future plot or direction. Negative comments actually decrease my pleasure in writing, strange but one negative can outweigh 10 good ones. Positive comments give me a little happy shot. I started to post a story here and lost my way, lost the plot so to speak. But at all times the comments were never derogatory, writing can be bloody hard I discovered.
ReplyDeleteBig Bird, you are for me one of the best writers. Keep the words flowing and keep that wonderful mind working. Lots of us take great pleasure from your work.
Andy Engines
I agree completely. I basically stopped writing after I received a number of negative comments.
ReplyDeleteAreader never stop writing
ReplyDeleteI'm very happy with the story.
ReplyDeleteI've had the opportunity to read the original story.
And I'm fascinated that in this story a psychiatrist manipulated the minds of the two sisters in a very professional way.
I can't hide my excitement in imagining what will happen in the next episode.
I really enjoy imagining the possible future twists in the story.
I want to see when the psychiatrist begins to manipulate the unsuspecting model's mind more deeply.
Apart from that it is sad to see that there are people who in the first comments show anger or rejection for the continuation of the story.
It seems to me that they don't take into account the effort of the writer to bring us a story which has the purpose of entertaining people who love this kind of stories.
I will make a confession. One of the reasons my first story (Zoe and Annabelle) was never finished was some rather cruel comments about it. I just lost direction and felt like I was painting by numbers a little. But... now a few years older and hopefully wiser.... I simply understand that I write for myself and , much as I might like otherwise, I cannot please everyone. It would be impossible.
ReplyDeleteOn the subject of Zoe and Annabelle, I will revisit that story at some point. Just time dictates all and this is my main priority for now =)
BigBird
I still occsionally reread your Zoe/Annabelle story, partly because the idea of role exchange and loss of status because of fantasy I find interesting. That's why I enjoyed the original Cleaner story (as well as Andy Engine's fantastic quartette of stories and the one he's sadly abandoned - 'Dancing with my Soul').
DeleteHowever, it seems your approach to 'Cleaner' is different fom Emma Finn's in that Dahlia's downgrade may not be quite as willing as in the original and that's no bad thing. Here's power to your writing elbow!
R
Hi BB
DeleteI've just read the comments section on your Annabelle story.
Wow! I can see just why it was never finished, despite, in my opinion, being well-wtitten.
Considering as you say it's impossible to please all of the people all of the time, what would be the point?
Please carry on writing your stuff though, you have plenty of fans on here.
Charles.
Hi bigbird
DeleteBig fan of the new author story featuring Zoe and Annabelle.
I remember reading it on the changing mirror website but I don't remember any cruel comments.
There's pages of people hoping you'll continue and giving you praise.
The only negative I can see is from Violet C saying you don't finish stories which if we're being honest, is the biggest case of pot kettle black I think I've seen on there.
I really hope you'll finish that story and I look forward to see what you do with this re-telling.
Well, thhis comment section escalated quickly...
ReplyDelete-Vessantia
I've seen worse!
DeleteI'm confused. The only Annabelle story I see in the archives was by Violet Carson, and it was finished. (In a rather strange way, but it was finished.) Is BigBird saying that he is also Violet Carson, or did I somehow miss finding his Annabelle story?
ReplyDeleteNo, it's this unfinished story
Deletehttp://www.thechangingmirror.com/phpbb/viewtopic.php?f=11&t=3380
Thanks, Camille. I don't follow that site. I took a quick look at the story and comments. I thought the story was well-written and promising, and just about all the comments I saw in my quick look were positive. Perhaps this is an example of a common problem in writing serial stories. It's very risky to start publishing the first parts if the author doesn't have a very detailed plot outline from beginning to end, including a conclusion. If the author of a serial story gets stuck in the middle, she can't go back and rework prior parts to unstick the plot, the way she could if it were a story written as a whole.
DeleteThat's always a problem writing a serial 'on the fly' as it were. Dickems succeeded, of course, but he was a literary genius; for mere mortals it's a perilous road few manage well.
DeleteI usually (well, often) insist that anything I edit has the ending already at least sketched out so the writer doesn't paint themself into a corner. I've edited a few mammoth stories that worked out OK despite being unfinished- one of them for Camille (Secret Slave). The first story I got involved in is by Rebecca Andersen (Wild Horses) and that took a few years to finish. It was worth it but was complete before it was posted in several episodes. I think it's still on FM.
Violet C (Carson, here) has only one unfinished story (Klavdia Kuznetsova) but all her others are complete though some perhaps slightly rushed at the end.
I never comment on stories I hate?dislike though I may offer adverse criticism amongst the praise of those I like. I'm no literary genius (I dropped English Literature at school after 14 because I wanted to study science) but I like grammar and I'm reasonably good at it (it's bit like writing software :) ) and I enjoy helping far better storytellers than I'll ever be.
It's always as well to remember that everything you read here is free but the writer has spent a lot of time and effort to provide it. It's polite to refain from comments likely to cause upset lest you slay the goose that lays these golden eggs.
R
"It's always as well to remember that everything you read here is free but the writer has spent a lot of time and effort to provide it. It's polite to refain from comments likely to cause upset lest you slay the goose that lays these golden eggs."
ReplyDeleteExactly this.
Surely it's not that hard to understand?