by BigBird74
56.
Katherine had worked long into the night preparing the
reception room for Dahlia’s big press conference. Carefully chosen flowers
lined the sides of the room, placed strategically so they would show up clearly
behind where Dahlia would sit. Katherine had always believed that, with
sufficient care and attention paid to surroundings, it was possible to sway the
sympathies of those in attendance. Her job had been made easier by the fact
that Dahlia was looking her very best. After all, the public likes beautiful
people. Katherine could only marvel at how trim and perfectly turned out Dahlia
was after all those months recovering from her ‘breakdown.’ That word –
breakdown – had been carefully selected by Tommy, again, to elicit a large
dollop of sympathy. Drug use was still a complicated issue as far as public
opinion was concerned, with a wide range of opinions, from those likely to have
also indulged in the forbidden to those whose moral compass would never permit
such abandon. Katherine knew, in our age of constant media, that playing the
victim card would be best. It was therefore crucial that everything about the
event played its part in conveying such an image.
It did not help that the cleaner seemed to be
distracted, her mind clearly elsewhere. More than twice, Katherine had caught
‘Petra’ staring at the podium that was to elevate Dahlia back to her former
glory, deep in thought. She had brushed off the fat slob’s excuses and firmly
reminded her that the hallway and reception room must be spotless by 11am when
the various guests were to arrive. It was only after the third time of telling
that something finally shifted inside of ‘Petra’ and the next time Katherine
checked on her, she was busy mopping the marble floor.
Checking her watch, Katherine could see that Tommy was due to arrive at any moment. Of the many men in her life, Tommy was, by far, the one she cared for most. Their relationship was purely platonic, but grounded on a real affection formed over many years of working together. Tommy had always looked out for Katherine and sent various projects her way. But Dahlia was something special. Until the ‘incident’, she had been Tommy’s prized client and he was understandably nervous about where he stood with her. Now, given what amounted to a second chance, he wanted nothing to go wrong and had asked Katherine, as a safe pair of hands, to take the job of assisting Dahlia.
Tommy had set the press conference up after speaking
to Dahlia a few weeks ago. Though he had his doubts about the timing, she had
insisted, as though fearful that a comeback would only get harder the longer
she left it. It had taken a monumental effort and the calling in of several
favours to get the turnout promised today. This left him nervously optimistic
about Dahlia’s chances. It also played to his ego. He still wanted to help her
to achieve that place in the pantheon of supermodels, though he had his doubts.
She had lost none of her beauty, but he worried that maybe some of brand Dahlia
had been tarnished by recent events. All this was playing on his mind as he
parked his car and walked to the front of Dahlia’s palatial home. After taking
a deep breath to calm his mind, he rang the doorbell.
As if by pure chance, the real Dahlia was on the other
side of the door. She had just finished vacuuming the carpet that acted as a
door mat for visitors and jumped as the bell rang. With the fateful hour
approaching, she had grown more nervous, a light sweat forming on her body in
all the wrong places. The slightly damp patches under her armpits were to be
expected, but what horrified the former model was the way the sweat also clung
to her belly and between her fat thighs, leaving slight, tell-tale signs on her
otherwise immaculate, new uniform. Understandably, she felt grateful to whoever
had left that uniform in the wardrobe of her new home. Without it she would
have been forced to appear today in her old dress, worn thin over the past few
months.
The doorbell rang again and, with no sign of
Katherine, ‘Petra’ reached out to open the door - after all, had she still been
mistress of the house, it is was what she would have expected from the cleaner.
She stood for a moment staring at the door handle, the eroticism of that
momentary, flyaway thought about her ‘previous’ life making her tingle all over
and brought back memories of last night. After finding the collection of
magazines stored in her bedroom, she had binge read all of them, obsessing over
how beautiful she was and feverishly debating whether she may be able to
recapture her looks and position. After all, she WAS Dahlia Western. Melissa
could never take that away from her. But, as she scanned every page of every
magazine that contained an image of her old self, the fear that she could not
manage it bubbled within her. No matter how much she told herself she WAS
Dahlia Western, the image that looked back at her in the cracked mirror was
that of a grossly fat woman with a cheap haircut who looked like she had never
taken a minute of exercise in her life. Looks of course can be deceiving. Many women
pile on the pounds later in life as their biochemistry alters and leaves them
hapless victims of a growing girth they cannot control. But Dahlia could not
escape the nagging worry that she had chosen this. She had wanted it. And as
she looked at those pictures of herself from a now seemingly bygone era, she
felt that powerful eroticism stirring again. Her sexual self was again firmly
in the driving seat and, as her pudgy fingers pushed her towards a climactic
crescendo, she found herself rationalising what she had done to herself and how
she ‘needed’ to live within the role she had placed herself in. That moment of
acceptance, a recognition that, for the time being, she had no say over the
direction of her life, let Dahlia relax and stop worrying about her
predicament.
Casting her gaze around the dingy, worn out flat,
Dahlia felt that the seediness of what she had wanted all along was catching up
with her. If this was still a game, a moment away from herself, she could
already see that it was going to last a lot longer than she had initially
accepted. Exhausted from her long day, she stripped off for bed, her gaze drawn
to her reflection in the long dressing mirror. She surveyed her naked body, her
finger tips pressing into the soft mounds of flesh that now covered her body.
Her massive breasts hung like sacks of fat on her chest. Without her enormous
parachute bras to hold them up, they sagged in an ugly fashion onto her
protruding belly. Her thatch of pubic hair visible from the rolls of flesh
hanging down from her stomach and her overly ripe, thick thighs. She continued
touching herself, still barely able to conceive the person she was becoming and
how far removed it was from her old glamourous self. A shiver passed down her
spine: could she start thinking like she were Petra? Would she ever forget she
was Dahlia? These thoughts were still fresh in Dahlia’s mind that morning as
she travelled to Hilltop. The eroticism hung around her like a pink mist as the
clock ticked by and that moment approached: the symbolic moment that everyone
around her would acknowledge her sister as Dahlia Western and she became Petra
McMahon. Each of them would be confirmed in their new identity by those around
them.
Any hopes Dahlia had at reclaiming her old life were
about to be dealt another blow. For, as Dahlia opened the door and came
face-to-face with Tommy, her complete loss of identity was cruelly confirmed.
Time seemed to stand still for Dahlia as she laid eyes
on Tommy for the first time since the overdose. Only this was the not the Tommy
she knew. The Tommy she had worked with for so many years, who had nurtured and
shielded her, who she had grown to trust above all others, would have smiled at
Dahlia, eagerly proffering a kiss to each cheek. For his part, Tommy had devoted
a big part of his life to Dahlia, but this obese cleaner was not Dahlia. Dahlia
was the beautiful supermodel lusted after by all ages of men, desired by
everyone, a figure of perfect femininity. That was the Dahlia he knew and
‘Petra’ was most certainly not any of the above.
Dahlia did not know what to do. She had planned to
hide in the shadows today, keeping herself out of view of anyone that may have
known her. Instead she had found herself right in front of the one person that
knew her about as well as her sister. But that flash of recognition never came.
The twinkle that sparked in Tommy’s eyes whenever he saw Dahlia was absent. However,
much Dahlia feared she might be recognised, Tommy’s superficial interest in the
cleaner meant that he paid her the slightest of interest.
“Hello. I am here to see Dahlia,” he announced,
clearly in a hurry and expecting to be let in.
Dahlia nodded, terrified to talk, opening the door for
him and stepping submissively to one side. Tommy brushed by Dahlia as though
she were invisible. Though she had always played it safe with Tommy, Dahlia had
always been flattered by his attention, often finding it a timely boost to her
self-confidence. Now, to be totally ignored by him, to be nothing more than a
part of the background, just some pathetically unattractive home help, left her
shocked and unable to think straight.
Fortunately or otherwise, Katherine finally made an
appearance at that very moment, coming to collect Tommy and escort him upstairs
to see an expectant Dahlia. ‘Petra’ stood motionless. A part of her longed for
him to recognise her, while the fear of exposure led her to stand to one side,
to shrink as best she could into the background. However as Tommy was led away,
Dahlia realised just how big a change she had undergone and how well she was
hidden. If Tommy did not bat an eyelid at her, then who would? Only two people
knew who she was and they were both firmly in on the secret. To all those she
would encounter on a daily basis, she was Petra. Everything they saw about her
categorised her as a poor fat cleaner. Nothing more. A drudge. A slob. A
person with no ambition. A terrible thought then crossed her mind: what if she
never got back? What if Melissa would really insist on keeping her this way? Or
what if something happened to her sister? Is her disguise so complete that she
could never get back to where she was? As Katherine escorted Tommy upstairs to
see Dahlia, that thought, of never getting back her life, sent Dahlia into mild
shock. As the image of Tommy paying her scant regard played over and over in
her head, she felt dizzy and needed to reach out to steady herself. Finally,
Dahlia was seeing the wood for the trees. Her sister was clearly planning for
more than just the next few months. She was in this for years!
Dahlia’s fears were confirmed over the course of that
morning. When Melissa did appear, the room full of journalists and the fashion
press seemed to take a collective gasp of air. She looked truly amazing. Her
golden locks were teased to perfection, her sultry figure seemed to be poured
into the tightest of the dresses that accentuated the slimness of her torso and
the seductiveness of her gym-honed curves. Dahlia watched the whole thing from
an adjoining room, where she had to content herself with peeking through a
slightly ajar door, after Katherine had angrily dismissed the ‘eyesore’ from
the room. For the first time in her life, Dahlia felt a pang of jealousy
towards her sister, the thought that rather than merely replacing her, she was
superseding her.
Over the course of 90 agonising minutes, Melissa stole
Dahlia’s life and cemented her place in it. She revealed detailed plans for the
next year: lots of international shows; a hectic schedule of interviews and
picture shoots. Most importantly was her decision to accept a fly-on-the wall
documentary team into her home in a display of openness that would aid her
‘recovery’. That last point in particular meant only one thing. Dahlia’s route
back to her old life was to be blocked off from the very start. How could she
recover her lost self and confront her sister with those people in her home?!
Obviously Melissa was using her calendar to her advantage, filling the empty
space in which she might have discreetly lost weight and grown her hair back
into place. Instead she would have to stick to the role of cleaner for all to
see. Hilltop would no longer be a private place of seclusion, but a window onto
the life of a supermodel.
As she stood trembling with a toxic mixture of fear
and anger, Dahlia momentarily considered opening the doors and revealing her
true identity and telling everyone to get out. But the notion that she could
take all the ridicule and shame that would involve was soon squashed by her
growing fear. No. Nothing like that was possible. Besides, destroying Dahlia
Western’s career served to benefit no-one. She would just be the same as she
was now: a fat, ugly failure. Just a fat, ugly failure in the full glare of
global publicity and not one that can hide away in Barton.
The realisation that she was to be Petra for more than
a few months or – perhaps – years affected Dahlia profoundly. The last flickers
of self-belief were extinguished as she realised the real peril she was in. Her
sister clearly had no concern for her wellbeing and held almost all the cards.
If Dahlia pushed the nuclear button, she would merely destroy herself. Her
sister would, on the other hand, probably gain from the notoriety. She was
Dahlia now and her story would be inspirational to millions of women around the
world. Dahlia, on the other hand, would be a figure of scorn.
Dahlia doubted that any court of law would take her
pleas of being misled seriously. She had signed too many documents for that.
Who knows just what she had signed away in her fit of sexual excitement? Her
sister seemed to have access to her money. Had she the deeds to the home? Did
she know everything about her financial dealings? All these thoughts crowded
into Dahlia’s already busy mind, making her panic. Just as she felt she could
take no more, she heard a familiar voice from behind her.
“Hello Petra..”
The voice was welcomingly familiar, someone who would
know the inner torment she was enduring right now. “Hello Doctor,” she replied
somewhat ashamed at being caught spying on her sister’s big moment, her hands
still trembling.
“You enjoy that?” The doctor asked. “You like being a
voyeur into your own life?”
Barely perceptible to the human eye, Dahlia’s vast
bulk shifted ever so slightly. To a trained specialist, the shift was clear and
indicative. “Go on. Turn and watch her. Watch Dahlia Western take what is
rightly hers.”
Dahlia could not have explained why she did it, but
she returned to the crack in the door and started watching again as her sister
talked of starting a new foundation to tackle drug abuse.
“Impressive isn’t she?” He continued to taunt her
gently. “Much better than you ever were, wouldn’t you say?”
Dahlia again found herself on a threshold. From the
sensations she felt growing within her, she knew nodding now would feel so
good. She knew it would confirm to one of only two people who knew the truth
that she would accept her place, that she would let go of her old life and
literally become Petra. Nodding would seal her fate for years. Nothing could
help her.
His hands were on her vast backside. Looking in the
mirror last night had brought home the true extent of her weight gain and, as
his fingers sank deep into her fleshy cheeks, she shuddered as the memories of
their previous sexual encounters came crashing back to her. Those delicious moments
of shame and humiliation seemed to pale into insignificance compared to what
she felt now. Her overly ripe body seemed to wobble a little as a shockwave of
pleasure shuddered upwards.
“Yes. Dahlia is a tremendous beauty. Could you ever
imagine looking like her? Being that beautiful and successful?”
A slight shake of the head from Dahlia made the doctor
smile and continue his observations.
“I guess you could never imagine having her looks. I
suppose you can only dream of having her life yes? Is that not the case Petra?”
Again she nodded, letting herself indulge in the fantasy that had developed in
her head these past few months and was now becoming real. She felt her body
responding to his touches, his light fingers tracing her fat curves from
behind, as she watched events unfold hidden away from view.
“I….I am not … good enough to be let into the room…”
Dahlia whispered to him. “My place is out of sight, out of mind… I….am only a
…. cleaner after all.”
She talked with pauses, her mind racing along as she
spoke, letting go of the reality she had held dear for almost all of her life
and embracing a new one. She felt dirty and seedy. No-one in their right mind
would ever actually embrace the life awaiting her in Barton. But, at that very
second, as she watched Melissa closely, she was sure she could see a rictus
grin. For a moment, she imagined herself up on that podium, recalling the
sickness in her belly that preceded almost any public engagement. Could she
ever have done what her sister just did? Did she have the metal for all this
now? The memory of those awful anxiety attacks and the way people seemed to
leech off her. How many superficial smiles had she given? How many people did
she suspect of using her for their own gain? Did any of them care for her, or
was it always about her looks?
A slight gasp left her lips as the doctor’s fingertips
reached her neck and he slid them up to her ear. He leaned forwards and
whispered in her ear.
“I chose the flat in Barton. Petra, I know everything
you are feeling. I made you. I saved you from that facile life. Let Melissa
have it. You belong elsewhere now.”
Dahlia could only nod now. Like those early days when
they first met, his grip over her was complete, only this time without the
additional help of a trance. This time, Dahlia needed no help in opening her
eyes to her true nature. As the conference finished and the doctor walked away
to greet Melissa, Dahlia returned to her menial duties, an invisible presence
in this gathering of beautiful people. Whereas once she had been the most
beautiful, now she was an oddity. She could see a questioning look in their
eyes, wondering why Dahlia Western employed such a foul-looking creature? At
least that was how Dahlia imagined they thought. She was intensely aware of
just how much she stood out and how, on the surface, no one could imagine she
had ever been anything other than a cleaner.
WOW! powerful &perhp the most erotic yet! Poor D. seeong her sister ursrept herlife her looks herg lory & fame & realise that M had planned to keep tinss as they were for yuears! se seems at the end in an erotc for on the verge of becoming Petra, mind *& body forever. the shrink is a real nmoster
ReplyDelete...that shrink should run for prime minister!.....wait a minute....
ReplyDeleteExcellent continuation!
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ReplyDeleteIs there a new chapter coming?
ReplyDeleteIt is not that I am impatient, but the whole of May and nothing? Really?
ReplyDeleteThe whole of May and June and still nothing? Is the story actually over?
ReplyDeleteI am impressed quite positively so far. It does not seem finished to me. Not everything is said or done. Would be a shame. History repeated.
ReplyDeleteIt would be a shame indeed. One of the best stories on this already excellent blog, and to be left unfinished...
ReplyDeleteWill we actually see this story finished, Big Bird? It seems an awful lot of work to not be completed...
ReplyDeleteWill the year finish before the Cleaner does? It would appear so, sadly...
ReplyDeleteNot giving up hope there will be more to the story!!!!
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